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Welcome the whole new pain and take comfort in what you've become. I waved as I passed myself along the way. I have arrived so unashamed but my reflection no longer seems the same. It seems much dimmer now... it seems so dim. Just stumble and fall into a world that's over crowded. And you will find me. Won't recognize me; and I won't recognize myself. I've arrived so unashamed, but all my senses no longer seem the same. I can sense everything. My sight's so clear. In an instant,, my life just slipped away, I fought for life, the whole time you were holding me down. You watched me dying. Holding me down, you brought my rebirth. You got a fast car I want a ticket to anywhere Maybe we make a deal Maybe together we can get somewhere Anyplace is better Starting from zero got nothing to lose Maybe we'll make something But me myself I got nothing to prove You got a fast car And I got a plan to get us out of here I been working at the convenience store Managed to save just a little bit of money We won't have to drive too far Just 'cross the border and into the city You and I can both get jobs And finally see what it means to be living You see my old man's got a problem He live with the bottle that's the way it is He says his body's too old for working I say his body's too young to look like his My mama went off and left him She wanted more from life than he could give I said somebody's got to take care of him So I quit school and that's what I did You got a fast car But is it fast enough so we can fly away We gotta make a decision We leave tonight or live and die this way I remember we were driving driving in your car The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk City lights lay out before us And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder And I had a feeling that I belonged And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone You got a fast car And we go cruising to entertain ourselves You still ain't got a job And I work in a market as a checkout girl I know things will get better You'll find work and I'll get promoted We'll move out of the shelter Buy a big house and live in the suburbs You got a fast car And I got a job that pays all our bills You stay out drinking late at the bar See more of your friends than you do of your kids I'd always hoped for better Thought maybe together you and me would find it I got no plans I ain't going nowhere So take your fast car and keep on driving You got a fast car But is it fast enough so you can fly away You gotta make a decision You leave tonight or live and die this way Here we are In a world of corruption Human nature is Of violent Breed Who cares if there;s no tomorrow When I die for my future's Laid out for me Can't you see? Rise above the lies Morals on a backwards globe A sin to you For me it's hope. It's my life and provision Black or white Some pay to pray You question why they Act this way It's their fucking decision No more judgement day Only tranquility Peace signs, protest lines Mean nothing to me Honesty born in me Heresy I know what's right or wrong And my belief is stronger Than your advice People, they go to war Because religion gives them Reason to fight Sacrifice, die for pride A group that caters No one's fees Or synthetic deities Is where I belong My stand is the human race Without a label or a face So they can lick my sack No more judgement day Only tranquility Peace signs, protest lines Mean nothing to me Honesty born in me Heresy Close yet far Who said that I wasn't right? I"ve lived for years without a life Don't have a soul on my side Still ridiculed despite how hard that I have tried Don't take me under your wing I don't need a hand, don't need anything I"ve got a roof over my head As if I'd rather be alone with me instead Close yet far Drop me a line and tell me how the hell you are And I'll tip my hat to those who can't believe it's me And I never never never ever wanted this to be I can hear the sounds of the city Sunrise and Set are the same to me A hesitating pulse is good company And my reflection offers no apology But who said that I wasn't right? And I've lived for years without a life Don't have a soul on my side Still ridiculed despite how hard that I have tried Close yet far Drop me a line and tell me how the hell you are And I'll tip my hat to those who can't believe it's me And I never never never ever wanted this to be Close yet far Drop me a line and tell me how the hell you are And I'll think of days when there was something to belive And I never never never ever wanted this to be Quite bitter beings with my perceptions in a mix down 20 miles through the sticks to the cloudy town of hellview population 96. excessive vacancy, well maybe in the shadow of an eye all the strangers passing through where the rules just dont apply at the fork turn left a store, but on the right stay free from sight cuz 96 quite bitter beings like to stack the bodies high the only way to ever leave is over flooded by the storm and the entanglement in hellview brings you fear in 50 forms. they've deleted all the tourists at the bottom of the lake and not one supports the cause to leave the blood stay in the veins here,3 miles back is where we are all we ever wanted was an answer civilized are close but way too far all we ever wanted was an answer footprints giving clue to where we are all we ever wanted was an answer civilized are close but way too far all we ever wanted... Shippensburg You know what makes me happy The things that make you sad The feel that I controls absorbed by the radio jag I found my indecision The product of the media grime The feel that I control have you press rewind And now I'm on the wings Hoping that you'll hear Don't bother to respond You love to hear me again And when the sun beams down all of your lies Close, close, yeah close the light The sky's all grey in the barracks I know I'm a lousy hero The classic act of feeling is that of a memory And you are peering down through parascopic eyes Close, close, yeah close (conscience) I try to hide the fact that I'm afraid We'll drive the band to Shippensberg and hope that we get played And in the end of a season the voices turn it all off The things that were so meaningless 'til the next one comes along I try to hide the fact that I'm afraid We'll drive the band to Shippensberg and hope that we get played Attached at the hip Failed attempts have turned us into one pathetic twisted wreck All is erie, your standing near me Feel you breathing down my neck You don't need to be so shallow Turn your head, prepare to follow Deep incision Operation Tortured one, becoming two Involuntary Solitary It's nice to have a point of view Dependency Separate we never will be Attached at the hip to me, yeah Separate we never will be When there's no privacy Separate we'll never be seen Attached at the hip to me (3X) A part of my anatomy You don't need to be so shallow Turn your head, prepare to follow Have you ever seen another lying in a pool of blood? Separate we never will be Attached at the hip to me, yeah When there's no privacy Separate we'll never be seen Attached at the hip to me (3X) A part of my anatomy You don't need to be so shallow... Disengage the simulator With the error that's in my mind and in my soul I'm drivin blind I got a picture in the box that's bringing me to where I am Yet the eyes are all affixed on you not me For driving blind And the first time will be the last time that you believe You're falling as you decide Face down the whole world wide Before cannot be retrieved From all the way up here there's no end I'm flyin high But the worst is never first and there's a person that will set you straight Cancelling the force within my brain For flyin high The simulator has been disengaged Indifference begins to take sides Face down the whole world wide Before cannot be retrieved From all the way up here there's no end I'm flying high But the worst is never first and there's a person that will set you straight Escape from hellview the fire dies on its own leaving us to ourselves but not exactly alone I think that something is out there waiting anticipation has grown the air as black as can be can't even see that my hand is in front of me I'm overhearing a whisper "they won't escape until the blood is set free" so turn back the silence is deafening turn back don't let them see you again they make the rounds at the midnight hour and on the clock it's just a minute away So were out! we're hours awake and our only mistake is we bleed and the hunger for the living helps them hunt it with the greatest of ease now I'm finding my friends hanging from trees, made a bed of a barbed wire fence I'm on the loose with my neck in the noose but hey... I enjoy the intense turn back the silence is deafening turn back don't let them see you again they make the rounds at the midnight hour and on the clock it's just a minute away so we're hours awake and our only mistake is we bleed and the hunger for the living helps them hunt it with the greatest of ease no experience could ever match the sight of when a person is through if it's the last thing I will do I'll be the one that will escape from hellview...and I will. turn back the silence is deafening turn back don't let them see you again they make the rounds at the midnight hour and on the clock it's just a minute away {twice} so we're hours awake and our only mistake is we bleed and the hunger for the living helps them hunt it with the greatest of ease no experience could ever match the sight of when a person is through if it's the last thing I will do I'll be the one that will escape from hellview...and I will. Flesh into Gear I cant expect you to see Me when im not around And my voice is destroyed By confinement of sound I'm a human machine Laced with hiddens disease If the future is bleak Then you're connected to me Flesh into gear my self appears dissected and pretentious A simple sound, a heavy side could win the whole world over You live in fear of being someone that you didn't want to I realize your insecurities will get the best of you A traitors embrace How foolish how wrong Contained in one place Anxiety spawns Unopened reowned What's needed upscaled Digested inhaled Unwilling unwound Flesh into gear my self appears dissected and pretentious A simple sound, a heavy sigh could win the whole world over You live in fear of being someone that you didn't want to I realize your insecurities will get the best of you (X2) Frenetic amnesia a blackout they peel him up off of the floor frenetic amnesic he's delirious, he thinks he's been here before frenetic amnesic no recall, not one familiar face frenetic amnesic the molded man has been completely erased frenetic amnesic everybody's after me you could be the enemy you seem too happy to reveal yourself there's no resentment here frenetic amnesic completely in the dark, try to pave a way with no chance and no reason not knowing who you are... looking for the truth it ain't there and you can't believe them everybody's after me you could be the enemy you seem too happy to reveal yourself there's no resentment here what you see is what you get two seconds later i forget you seem too happy to reveal yourself there's no resentment here no recall there's no familiar face frenetic amnesic the molded man has been completely erased frenetic amnesic frenetic amnesic Lost in a contraption I was lost in a contraption Took me days to find direction Suddenly the moments collide Finally found the fault in father Family blood dilutes the water I was dazed in my direction tonight Photographed, when I the ground No one minds, that's my blind side I was lost and you're to blame A man of doubt gave me a name The obvious was too hard to find To watch me try Is out of line The sun will shine To watch me die Is out of line The sun will still shine What's mine is mine The sun will still shine Saras mask The first time I saw you I thought that I could just make another And then I realized that in life you were just another mirror The first words you spoke were the one's that I vaguely remember But tied in a knot all the times that we havent spent together Is it your face thats got you down? Or is it your mind when no ones around?(thinking thoughts of the suicide) Is it your face thats got you down? Or is it your mind when no ones around? And now when she leaves in the dark behind ample waves of cancer A stroll in the park is a walk from her hopes to be a dancer A light at the end of a tunnel thats been going on forever You dont understand why these people are looking unfamiliar So take my hand cause I will walk you around in a mask Why dont you tell me now Is it your face thats got you down? Or is it your mind when no ones around?(thinking thoughts of the suicide) And Is it your face thats got you down? Or is it your mind when no ones around? And now when you leave in the dark inside everybody's answers Your planning a way to abandon us and live your life the way you like Advoiding the urge to go sulk in your remedial appearance But Sara I only expect to see the whole thing a little bit clearer So take my hand cause I will walk you around in a mask Why dont you tell me now And it your face thats got you down? Or is it your mind when no ones around? So take my hand because I will walk you around in a mask Why dont you tell me now To all of you A mirror doesn’t look like them I guess it never will What would you say if I took a piece for me Happiness is your best friend It doesn’t appeal to me Have you ever seen me?? As I talk it lets you down Your finally used to me But they never talk your way The universe is in your hand That doesn’t appeal to me What would they say if I took a piece for me? Happiness is your best friend It doesn’t appeal to me Have you ever seen me?? As I talk it lets you down Your finally used to me But they never talk your way A mirror doesn’t look them I guess it never will What would you say if I took a piece for me Happiness is your best friend It doesn’t appeal to me Have you ever seen me?? |
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With your feet in the air And your head on the ground Try this trick and spin it, yeah Your head will collapse But there's nothing in it And you'll ask yourself Where is my mind Where is my mind Where is my mind Way out in the water See it swimmin' I was swimmin' in the Carribean Animals were hiding behind the rock Except the little fish But they told me, he swears Tryin' to talk to me to me to me Where is my mind Where is my mind Where is my mind Way out in the water See it swimmin' ? With your feet in the air And your head on the ground Try this trick and spin it, yeah Your head will collapse If there's nothing in it And you'll ask yourself Where is my mind Where is my mind Where is my mind With your feet in the air And your head on the ground Try this trick and spin it, yeah "Now self-destruction..." |
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lie in the comfort of sweet calamity with nothing left to lose, lie in the darkness im slowly drowned to sleep with nothing left to lose. three tears ive saved for you. i'd retrace the steps that lead me here but nothing lives behind me. so i lie in this field bathed in the light that loves me with nothing left to lose. three tears ive saved for you. will you be my beloved? will you help me to get through? will you be my destruction? will you help me through? if you cant stand upon the water i will see you on the ocean floor. when you blink do you only find the misery between the lines? then take my hand and walk with me. come to me your sanctuary. i'll gladly accept the gift that i've been granted. if you feel fine then give it just a little time i'm sure you'll cntract my disease. look at what you've done to me now, you've made me perfect. if you can't stand upon the earth then i will meet you n the other side. when you blink do you only find that the misery weighs down your eyes? then take my hand and sleep with me. take my hand i'll be everything to you. take my hand i'll take everything from you. i will seep under your skin. i will. i will hold onto your heart. i will Two weeks in a Virginia jail For my lover for my lover Twenty thousand dollar bail For my lover for my lover And everybody thinks That I'me the fool But they don't get Any love from you The things we won't do for love I'd climb a mountain if I had to And risk my life so I could have you You, you, you... Everyday I'm psychoanalyzed For my lover for my lover They dope me up and I tell them lies For my lover for my lover I follow my heart And leave my head to ponder Deep in this love No man can shake I follow my heart And leave my mind to wonder Is this love worth The sacrifices I make |
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hear one thousand screams, hear one thousand voices. a solitary echo. feel one thousand pains, but one is receiving a bloody invitation. do you want t feel the warmth? to taste the life flow? feel one thousand lost sinking into soft skin. ingest rejuvenation. one to consume one to renew. demanded invitation. i ffer grace i offer blood i offer everything till my heart is crystal clear. do you want to feel the warmth? to taste the life ? i want to taste the life to taste the life flow Along the path where the stream is talking. i breathe the mist and cntinue walking. the wood it whispers in a language of its own. a sigh escaped my lips i feel the light caress of fingertips that steal away the breath and leave me on my own, waiting by the stairs, waiting i despair. do i hear the hollow sound of footsteps resounding on this frozen ground or the familiar disappointment of the echoes of my own? somehow i ended up here inbetween where there is always the comfort f knowing i'll never be seen when i fall. i wait for just one touch and i fall. weightless endless faithless. i'll adore you. a single touch before i fade painless let me pass through A self affliction fades Stones to throw at my creator Masochist to which I cater You don't need to bother I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on I won't let go 'til it bleeds Wish I was too dead to care If indeed I cared at all Never had a voice to protest So you fed me shit to digest I wish I had a reason My flaws are open season For this I gave up trying One good time deserves my dying You don't need to bother I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on I won't let go 'til it bleeds Wish I'd died instead of lived A zombie hides my face Shelf forgotten with its memories Diaries left with cryptic entries And you don't need to bother I don't need to be (I dont need to be) I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on I won't let go 'til it bleeds You don't need to bother I don't need to be, yeah (I dont need to be) I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on (once I hold on) I'll never live down my deceits |
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At last my love has come along My lonely days are over And life is like a song Ohh yeah yeah At last the skies above are blue My heart was wrapped up in clover The night I looked at you I found a dream, that I could speak to A dream that I can call my own I found a thrill to press my cheek to A thrill that I have never known Ohh yeah yeah¦ You smile, you smile oh And then the spell was cast And here we are in heaven For you are mine at last Some people say that what I know should be kept secret, Some people say I don't know anything at all, Some people say that what I do could be dangerous, Some people say I don't do anything at all. Some people say this is a song that needs the drums in, Some people say no it's a song for the bass, Some people say that they can't stand what they're hearing, Some people say who gives a damn what they say. Do you think I care, do you think I care, Do you think I know or I'm aware, Do you think I care what you say when I'm oblivious. Some people say that I look just like my father, Some people say I've got my mother's eyes, Some people say I'm like my brother 'cos I'm honest and truthful, Some people say they know my brother's just another lie. Do you think I care, do you think I care, Do you think I know or I'm aware, Do you think I care what you say when I'm oblivious. Some people say that we should let the search continue, Some people say just what the hell's going on. Do you think I care, do you think I care, Do you think I know or I'm aware, Do you think I care what you say when I'm oblivious Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear. And I can't help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer. It's driven me before, and it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal. But lately I'm beginning to find I should be the one behind the wheel. Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there with open arms and open eyes. yeah. Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there, I'll be there. So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive? oh oh oooh. It's driven me before and it seems to be the way that everyone else gets around. But lately I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself my light is found. Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there with open arms and open eyes. Yeah. Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there, I'll be there... Would you choose water over wine.... hold the wheel and drive? Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there with open arms and open eyes. Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there I'll be there i'm feeling crossed, take it inside burn up the pain, my thoughts are strange just like the things i used to know just like the tree that fell, i heard it if art is still inside i'll feel it i wanna bleed show the world all that i have inside (i wanna show you all the pain...) i wanna scream let the blood flow that keeps me alive (i wanna make you feel the same...) take all these strings, they call my veins wrap them around, every fucking thing presence of people not for me well i must remain in tune forever my love is music and I will marry melody i wanna bleed show the world all that i have inside (i wanna show you all the pain...) i wanna scream let the blood flow that keeps me alive (i wanna make you feel the same...) I said i wanna bleed i wanna feel (show you all the pain...) i wanna scream i wanna feel (make you feel the same...) won't you let me take you for a ride you can stop the world, try to change my mind won't you let me show you how it feels you can stop the world, but you won't change me i need music i need music i need music to set me free to let me bleed Although ya try to discredit Ya still never edit The needle I'll thread it Radically poetic Standin' with the fury that they had in '66 And like E-Double I'm mad, still knee deep in the system's shit Hoover, he was a body remover I'll give you a dose but it'll never come close to the rage Built up inside of me Fist in the air in the land of hypocracy Movements come and movements go Leaders speak movements cease when their heads are flown Cause all these punks got bullets in their heads Departments of police, the judges, the feds Networks at work, keepin people calm You know they went after King, when he spoke out on Vietnam He turned the power to the have-nots And then came the shot With poetry my mind I flex Flip like Wilson, vocals never lackin' dat finesse Who I got ta who I got to do to wake you up To shake you up to break the structure up Cause blood still flows in the gutter I'm like taking photos Mad boy kicks open the shutter Set the groove Then I stick and move like I was Cassius Rep the stutter step Then bomb a left upon the fascists Yeah, several federal men Who pulled schemes on the dream And put it to an end Ya betta beware Of retribution with mind war 20/20 visions and murals with metaphors Networks at work, keepin' people calm Ya know they murdered X And tried to blame it on Islam He turned the power to the have-nots And then came the shot What was the price on his head What was the price on his head I think I heard a shot I think I heard, I think I heard a shot Black Nationalism He may be a brave contenner for this position Should he abandon it supposed obediance to the white literal docteren of non-violence And embrace black nationalism Through counter intellence it should be possible to pinpoint potential trouble-makers and neutralize them x2 And neutralize them x6 Wake up x8 How long, that long Cause what you reap Is what you sow! Take a souvenir and stop your staring Just cause I'm screaming Don't mean I'm sharing Can't keep my mouth shut if you keep that dress on You can't negotiate Not with me this time you go so low your faggot rainbow your Nazi Halo won't save you this time Bring your IQ and try to understand Just cause I'm listening Don't mean we're still friends Can't fix my problem You crossed a thin line You can't just work it out not with me this time you go so low your faggot rainbow your junkie ego won't save you this time you go so low your tragic disco your Nazi Halo won't save you this time You're so predictable no shadow of doubt when you are suffering know who sold you out Fuck your opinions Fuck your lack of spine When you are miserable Know that I'm just fine You go solo your faggot rainbow your junkie ego won't save you this time you go solo your tragic disco your Nazi Halo won't save you this time Fade into dream... Deep into a dormant pseudo-life Drown into night... Pass through the gate of sleep I see faded colours... I see a landscape so calm... To live a life asleep...is to master mortality I wander between these worlds On a quest to find a key When life seems to be lost And death comes to me door I vanish into a dream Into a place so cold, yet warm Within my flesh A thorn is molesting my sleep It's teasing me... Am I human after all? (no) Faded in dream... Beyond the wall of sleep For the sleep of death... It is the most divine Sandman stabs me in the back... Lord Ego, Punish me! Cleanse me from humanity! Reveal the fucking Beast! I must drown the human ignorance Deep in the lake of fire - Drink the wine Sandman, stab me in the back! Lord Ego...Punish me! To live within a dream...is to master mortality The quest to find a key...Still lives! Every lie will win a prize Love sold by a whore Calculate sacrifice Death without a war Aftermath and alibis Straw-doll-chess to please the poor Don’t tell me of any wonder shitting gold Don’t tell me of a hard way we have to go through Still we pay your warmth out of the cold Do you really think we’re that blind? Don’t spit on my mind Don’t spit on my mind Don’t spit on my mind Any form of government Has a black sheep part But the brave will never know What the black sheeps start In the name of country-love They enrich themselves apart Don’t tell me of any wonder shitting gold Don’t tell me of a hard way we have to go through Still we pay your warmth out of the cold Do you really think we’re that blind? Don’t spit on my mind Don’t spit on my mind Don’t spit on my mind We are the people, we are the masses you are for We give the power and our desire must be your law Don’t think I’m standing here all alone, one of a kind Don’t think because you’re still there Means that we are all blind Don’t spit on my mind Don’t spit on my mind |
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Bonfires burning bright, Pumpkin faces in the night, I remember Halloween. Dead cats hanging from poles, Little dead are out in droves, I remember Halloween. Brown leafed vertigo, Where skeletal life is known, I remember Halloween. This day anything goes, Burning bodies hanging from poles, I remember Halloween, Halloween Candy apples and razor blades, Little dead are soon in graves, I remember Halloween. This day anything goes, Burning bodies hanging from poles, I remember Halloween |
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Reverend reverend is this some conspiracy? Crucified for no sins An image beneath me Whats within our plans for life It all seems so unreal I'm a man couldnt have feel this world Left in my misery... The reverend he turned to me Without a tear in his eyes It's nothing new for him to see I didn't ask him why I will remember The love our souls had Sworn to make Now I watch the falling rain All my mind can see Now is your (face) Well I guess You took my youth I gave it all away Like the birth of a New-found joy This love would end in rage And when she died I couldn't cry The pride within my soul You left me incomplete Memories now unfold. Believe the word I will unlock my door And pass the Cemetery gates Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder aloud If you're watching over me Some place far abound I must reverse my life I can't live in the past Then set my soul free Belong to me at last Through all those Complex years I thought I was alone I didn't care to look around And make this world my own And when she died I should've cried and spared myself some pain... Left me incomplete All alone as the memories still remain The way we were The chance to save my soul And my concern is now in vain Believe the word I will unlock my door And pass the cemetery gates |