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i wish i could eat your cancer when you turn black These ghosts I keep inside Shards of glass in my veins Release me from myself, release From my duality I face this as a soldier would But useless is my war The innocence that smiles today Tomorrow will be lying Who is that really dies, when all the people look at me? And I'm twisting my fingers in my hair While a mirror reflects me Now I'm digging to the bone All the painting Scratching at flesh, drives me mad To be alive and free And the ghosts I keep inside myself How do they see me? While again I'm drowning With my soul You will save me?
	Paranoia in which i think that i'm not confident Blood into my hands i can't deny A buzz into my ears which makes me mad but i don't look back while i'm waiting to die i dont look back in a weird lullaby and the hope in my heart is dry but i dont look back and i cannot reply i don't look back while im waiting to lie i'll carry on while they want to decide for me once again living in their cage they are killing me paranoia in which i think that i'm not confident a tiny hope that burns into my breath a bitter smile delights me at the end
Finally what you've all been waiting for
	Silence disguised I watch you Show me the hurt that haunts you Would you despise the thrill If all you hide were mine? I can't hold on any longer These feelings keep growing stronger Echoes that deafen the mind Will bury my voice in their wake Caught in a web Removed from the world Hanging on by a thread Spinning the lies devised in my head I've seen the path the one you take shows the truth for you to make This turn of phrase we might not see is the thirst of desire found so easily Try to push me 'round the world some more And make me live in fear I bare all that I am made of now Attractive I don't care 'Cause even when I danced with life no one was there to share Does this voice the wounds of your soul? Caught in a web Removed from the world Hanging on by a thread Spinning the lies devised in my head Tried to live the life you live and saw It doesn't work for me I bare all that I am made of now Attractive, I can't be Inside the Dance of Life is one I'll never hold to me You can't heal the wounds of my soul. Caught in a web Removed from the world Hanging on by a thread Spinning the lies devised in my head Caught in a web Refused by the world Hanging on by a thread Spinning a cage Denied and misread Waiting In the calm of desolation Wanting to break From this circle of confusion Sleeping In the depths of isolation Trying to wake From this daydream of illusion How can I feel abandoned even when the world surrounds me How can I bite the hand that feeds the strangers all around me How can I know so many Never really knowing anyone If I seem superhuman I have been Misunderstood It challenges the essence of my soul And leaves me in a state of disconnection As I navigate the maze of self control Playing a lion being led to a cage I turn from a thief to a beggar From a god to God save me How can I feel abandoned even when the world surrounds me How can I bite the hand that feeds the strangers all around me How can I know so many Never really knowing anyone If I seem superhuman I have been Misunderstood Playing a lion being led to a cage I turn from surreal to seclusion From love to disdain From belief to delusion From a thief to a beggar From a god to God save me How can I feel abandoned even when the world surrounds me How can I bite the hand that feeds the strangers all around me How can I know so many Never really knowing anyone If I seem superhuman I have been Misunderstood Hear me, speaking Asking why I even bother Tell me, how you Live from day to day Take your time and look around Is this utopia you've found Sick of all of this The suffering and we just carry on Isn't it time we care and lose the hate Understand our fears But we do all that we can Justify the means to and end Sorry you must excuse me I've painted my own Mona Lisa She's fixed everything Now I'm spoiled beyond my wildest dreams Blind faith we have in you Invisible Which direction do we choose Predictable Take the streets, the beaten path Our system works for whom I ask Yeah I have it all The bigger house An iron fence to keep you out When did we all let you down So come Messiah show us how how Our human spirit drowns Don't think you hear me now No sign of you around What is it you hope to see Blind faith we have in you Invisible Which direction do we choose Predictable Give us something we can use Desirable Cause you've done all you can do Regrettable And still life pushes on With our without you We've got to carry on Our will, will guide us to A place where we belong Know there lies the truth I am the believer who gives purpose on to you I don't think we let you down So come Messiah show us how how Throw us a pure lifeline I hope that you hear me Too proud to be around There's more to us than we see now Blind faith we have in you Invisible Which direction do we choose Predictable Self ignorance, abuse Desirable Cause you've done all you can do Incredible Lost in the sky Clouds roll by and I roll with them Arrows fly Seas increase and then fall again This world is spinning around me This world is spinning without me Every day sends future to past Every breath leaves one less to my last Watch the sparrow falling Gives new meaning to it all If not today nor yet tomorrow then some other day I'll take seven lives for one And then my only father's son As sure as I ever did love him I am not afraid This world is spinning around me The whole world keeps spinning around me All life is future to past Every breath leaves me one less to my last Pull me under Pull me under Pull me under I'm not afraid All that I feel is honor and spite All I can do is to set it right Dust fills my eyes Clouds roll by and I roll with them Centuries cry Orders fly and I fall again This world is spinning inside me The whole world is spinning inside of me Every day sends future to past Every step brings me closer to my last Pull me under Pull me under Pull me under I'm not afraid Living my life too much in the sun Only until your will is done "Oh that this too, too solid flesh would melt." Roll me on your frozen fields Break my bones to watch them heal Drown me in your thirsty veins Where I'll watch and I'll wait And pray for the rain Curl like smoke and breath again Down your throat inside your ribs Through your spine in every nerve Where I watch and I wait and yield to the hurt And if you don't believe The sun will rise Stand alone and greet The coming night In the last remaining light Seven moons and seven suns Heaven waits for those who run Down your winter and Underneath your waves Where you watch and wait And pray for the day And if you don't believe The sun will rise Stand alone and greet The coming night In the last remaining light
Weird Dreams! FISH DREAM: we're all swimming around in a fish tank and we're fishies and we're following each other around. and we stop because tony has stopped behind us. and u know how fishies do stringed out poohs, well there was white stuff stringing off like that then we realise that a slut fishie is giving him a hand job (do fish even hav dicks?) and hes having a fish style ejaculation. Dave Grohl : that dave grohl with his moustache was so nerdy he was a chemistry geek and became introverted and weird and became the largest drug prodcer of some random city . he had a house with two front doors, people would go through the first front door hand money through the second letter box and he'd pass drugs back out. his house was all chemistryfocated and boffin like. dave grohl should definitly shave the moustache off. Kidney charity: A really scary man came to my house asking for charit, and he wanted a kidney and my elterns said he could have mine as it was charity. so i sat on the stairs screaming while he cut me open and took my kidney and my parents were like ' oh stop moaning its for charity'. Natasha cheese cut dream: she dreamt that her and others were being held hostage by some scary thing, they were tied up in a room with glass window on one wall but the lights reflecting stopped them coming through. the lights dimmed and she saw bodies piled up with cuts across them with slices of cheese placed in the middle! a cut then opened in her hand and she awaited and cheese. Tash also had a dream she was a 'my little pony' with wings and she was flying down the aisle in sommerfield. Beccy had a dream that worms had wings and they shot out of the ground menacingly! A long time ago in a galaxy far far away... Ben was in starwars... and his jedi team were having a battle with DarthMaul, but sadley loosing coz Bens lightsaber was crap.. so Bens other Jedi pal Stu from Neighbours steps in and decides lightsabers are crap and gets out some pokimon playing cards and beats DarthMaul in a card game.. thus good rules over evil and everythings pink and fluffy...may the force be with you.. {if you have any weird dreams let me know}